Update

Well this past weekend was so busy! Saturday Karson went to meet Jason and Toby at a brewery for a beer festival. Grase drove out with Sofia to our house and she arrived around noon on Saturday. We had to prepare for our beach trip. We were not in any hurry so we went to Baby r us and spent some time there. That is such an awesome store. I got to carry Sofia in the baby holder, you know the one where the baby is facing you just chilling. It is was really comfortable. We then went over to WINCO, a local store. We finally left for the beach at about 3pm. We got to the beach around 4pm. The boys (Karson and Toby) got there right after we did. We had so much stuff for the beach and there was no sun! It was overcast! We still had fun. Sofia sat in her baby tent for awhile but she slept most of the time. Sunday we went to the meeting and then just hung out at our house with them and Jimmy. It was a relaxing day.
Me and Karson bought a small pack n play for Sofia. It is so cute it has little monkeys on it. It fits perfectly in our spare room. We have diapers and wipes stocked too. Now Toby and Grase have to come visit more often!!! All in all the weekend was fun.
I had an appointment today with a OBGYN for a second opinion regarding my cyst. Well I found out that he will be doing the surgery to remove my cyst and to also try and get any scar tissue he can see. He will be doing the laprascoptic surgery (through holes in my tummy) but if the adhesions are bad they will have to open me up (laparotamy-the incision i had last time). They will call to schedule the surgery so I am not sure when it will be. Hopefully after my vacation (next week). The surgery will be outpatient at Riverside Kaiser but there is always (highly likely) a chance I will have to be admitted if they open me up. I am sort of happy because this might mean some relief from my pain but it might cause more pain too. You see if the adhesions are on my bowels or bladder things can get complicated. There is always the chance they might have to take my remaining ovary which means I would need to take hormones and might other problems. With all these risks I am still happy that they are at least going to look inside of me and maybe fix some of the pain I am having. At the least they will remove the dermoid cyst I have on my ovary. I guess I am just sick of bieng in pain and would endure all the pain of surgery just for some relief. I will post updates when I find out when the surgery will be.
Dez

Disneyland

We went to Disneyland this past weekend. Me and Karson went up Saturday night and stayed in a hotel for a little vacation. We had fun with our friends Marcel and Roni and a few other friends. Here are some pictures to enjoy.

Laughter

When I am down and feeling sad I look at these pictures and others and I am glad
I am glad to have a family who cares and takes the time to laugh away their tears
No matter how sad and lonely I feel I can look at my pictures and it helps me deal
I deal with my pain and my sadness too by just simply looking at all of you
Your laughter take it away and I am grateful for the laughs you send my way
We go through so much every day and it only takes one smile to take it away
You might think it strange that I stare but these pictures mean so much more
More than a frozen smile in time more than a laughter captured and stored
It is a precious gift for me ;don't ever stop smiling or laughing and hear my plea
The next time you laugh or smile remember it may live on in pictures, so just smile!

This one is my favorite! Karson looks like he is thinking "oh not another Caringella joke"

Dez

Been Awhile

It has been awhile since I posted anything. I have been having some bad days these past few weeks. I was having new pains in addition to my old pain!! I saw my primary Doctor and my OBGYN. My OBGYN thinks my cyst along with scar tissue around my ovary might be contributing to my pain. She thinks surgery to remove the cyst and adhesions is the best thing. She said she was going to consult a few Doctors/Surgeons and get back to me. She told me she has seen patients with cysts smaller than mine that had problems because of the cyst. My cyst is only about the size of a quarter. Of course I have a partial ovary so it is bigger than my ovary at this point. All I know is if I can eliminate some of my pain I am all for it. For the first time in a long time I am a little hopeful. I hope something happens to help me.

This past weekend we went to visit my family in L.A. We stayed with Toby and Grase, as we have done since the baby was born. We went out Thursday night and got to watch the baby Friday all day while mommy and daddy worked. We brought our new Rock Band 2 and Friday and Saturday night it was played for hours. I mostly hang out with the baby while I am out there to get as much Sofia time as possible. You have to remember me and Karson are the only ones that live far away in my immediate family. Sofia is an easy baby to take care of. I can't wait until she gets older when she can call me auntie Dez! The highlight of my weekend? Watching Sofia of course, but after that it was the mad libs me, Grase, and Gracie were playing Friday night. It was so fun! You forget how simple games like that are so much fun!

I want to thank Toby and Grase for giving us their bed on Friday and Saturday night. They said it was because they wanted to keep an eye on Sofia but I think they just did it to be nice to us!!

I love watching Sofia but it is exhausting so on Sunday we decided not to go to Disneyland after all with our friends. All that walking at Dland would just throw me into a lot of pain and I needed some rest to be able to get up and go to work on Monday. We went to see Wolverine when we got back into Moval. It was a really good movie. Karson said the one he saw had a different extra scene after the credits from the one we saw. That is kind of weird. I wonder why they did that.

I did not take many pictures since the last time I posted so enjoy the ones I did manage to take.

Dez

She looks like a Caringella all right!

Karson is holding Sofia when she was having a bad hair day! Her hair is just like her dads!!