Bad Day

Today is a bad day. I am not feeling good because I had my Physical Therapy yesterday and because I had to get to work early to make up some time I took off. I am also feeling depressed for some reason. I hate money. Why does it make us stress so much? I am tired and grumpy and my boss is really bugging me today. I just feel like yelling at everyone today and I keep thinking of more and more things that are bugging me with everyone. I just want to say my feelings and feel better...but I can't and I won't because they are hurtful and selfish. I usually write things out and then I feel better. I keep a notebook to write all my feelings down so I can just get them off my chest and feel better. This helps alot!!! I noticed in my family we all express our feelings through art. Some are muscians, some are poets, some are painters, and some are all of these. In every instance it seems like expressing ourselves comes much easier if we have this outlet. I know for me my journals and my poetry really help me with my emotions, especially with the negative emotions. Even if I want to talk about something important I feel much easier doing it in writing. It is much easier to write than to say something. If i talk too much all the emotions just bubble out and I end up sobbing and bieng even worse than when I started. I have had my share of confrontations and I am not afraid to handle these situations ...but it takes so much energy to have to do it in person. I would rather write. I have over 150 poems I have written since High School. I would have more but some of my earlier writtings have been lost. I have always kept a journal and I always write as if I am writing to someone else. This makes me feel better. My poems express my true feelings and i feel bad that i never expressed them verbally. I don't know if anyone really cares that I write poetry or if anyone would like to read any of them. I will include some in my posts for a little glimpse.
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