Pain In Blood

Why is it that I must endure this? We are told that we are given only as much as we can handle… Then why do I often feel like I can’t. It is definitely imposable for me to explain what goes on in my head. I have those moments though, those negative times. I am having one of those times now. It’s not just in my head. It’s painful too, all over. The strangest is in my blood… My blood hurts. It drives me insane. I cannot concentrate, and I cannot survive forever like this. You cannot talk to me, you cannot touch me. If you talk to me you strain my concentration. If you touch me you will cause me pain. Is this pain only in my head? When I use to cause pain I would tell myself it is only pain, just a translation in the brain. But this, if it is caused by my mind, I don’t feel it in my mind. I feel in my blood. Don’t talk to me, don’t touch me. Touch me, and you will cause me pain. My soul is thinning. How long will I last? How long before I begin to fade? How long, before I am gone completely? It hurts, oh it hurts. But not to worry, it passes. No, that’s not right. I hide it, or rather forget it. If I can be busy enough with something else… sometimes I can forget it. But it makes me weak. It takes so much out of me. No superhero am I. My Kryptonite is in my mind, and has poisoned my blood. Terminal is what my disease is, for there is no cure and it may be the death of me. It’s true; the stress and strain cannot be good for my heart. My blood, my blood, oh how it hurts. Not to worry, for I can forget it, it’s just a matter of time.
END OF LINE_ -KARSON