I'm a Honda S2000!

You live on the edge, and you live for the adrenaline rush. You don't need luxuries, snob appeal, or superfluous gadgets. You put your top down, get your motor revving, and take all the curves that life throws at you at full speed. So what if you spin out occasionally?

DEZ

News

I finished up my Physical Therapy and now my only hope is the trigger point injections or acupuncture. I got the results of my follow up tests. The small growth on my remaining ovary has grown a little bit. It is now about the size of a quarter. At this size it should not cause any pain or twist my ovary. They will continue to watch it and of course if it continues to grow eventually they will have to take it out. It seems to be growing slow. I wonder how long it took for my other cysts to grow-years? It is weird. I guess I should be happy but really it only prolongs the inevitable right? Well it is better than having no ovaries because then I would have to take more hormones. So I am not going to focus on that. I am going to focus on resolving my scar tissue pain issues.

My mom is resting and is doing fine. Thanks to everyone for caring so much for my mom and for me.
DEZ

P.S. When i write it is in RED. When Karson writes it is in GREEN

I'm a Mazda RX-8!

You're sporty, yet practical, and you have a style of your own. You like to have fun, and you like to bring friends along for the ride, but when it comes time for everyday chores, you're willing to do your part.

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Mom's Surgery

My mom was scheduled to have a laparoscopic surgery. For all who do not know what this means-it is when they do an incision near the belly button and use a camera and smaller instruments to do a surgery it involves filling the abdomin with air so there is better viewing. My mom was scheduled for 5:30am check in. I drove down Thursday night. Friday we, me my mom and dad, woke up at 4am. We got to the Baldwin Park Hospital around 5:30am. There was a huge line for check in. My mom was called at 6am to the pre op holding room. They gave us a vibraiting beeber so when the buzzed us we knew certain things. We got buzzed around 7am and went back to see my mom in the pre op holding room. This room is where everyone is prepped for outpatient surgery. My mom was in a gown and had the IV in her hand. Grase came around 7:30am and joined us with my mom. We waited there for an hour because her surgery got bumped due to an emergency. They finally started wheeling her away at 8:05am. Those of us waiting decided to go down to the cafeteria to have breakfast. We really liked the food!! Chris joined us, then Jason and Quinton came. We hung out at the cafeteria then headed back up to the waiting room. We waited...and waited...and waited. Me and my dad were worried. At 10:45am they buzzed us so we knew she was out of surgery and her doc would soon come to talk to us. I was so anxious every time the door opened I jumped. Finally the doc came out around 11:10am. She had pictures with her. She told us that she had to do the full incision (like mine) because she could not get to the cyst. The cyst on the left ovary was full of adhesions and was too sticky for her to get out. She removed the cyst and ovary. Everything else looked fine. So she informed us that since she had the full incision she would have to stay in the hospital. She told us we would be called when my mom is taking to her room. We waited again......finally at 2:00ish they called us and we saw mom for the first time. She was out of it and had no idea what happened. We informed her she would be staying in the hospital. She was suprised. We got her to her room and she was still groggy. She settled in and we, except for my dad, went down to have lunch at the cafeteria. We went back up to my mom and everyone left except me and my dad. I stayed the night with my mom. They had a chair that converted into a bed. It was freezing in my moms room!!! Saturday and Sunday I spent most of my time with my mom and dad. Karson came on Saturday and me and him slept at my parents Saturday night because my dad stayed with my mom that night. My mom was released on Sunday and she is now at home resting. Bieng in the hospital and seeing my mom's incision made me think of all the pain I have had from my surgery. I am still having scar tissue pain that I fear will never go away. My surgery was 9 months ago!!
I am so glad my mom was not in pain like I was. She is not in much pain and I think she will recover better than I did. I guess if my operation was not an emergency it might have went better.

That is all ......more later.
Dez

Pain In Blood

Why is it that I must endure this? We are told that we are given only as much as we can handle… Then why do I often feel like I can’t. It is definitely imposable for me to explain what goes on in my head. I have those moments though, those negative times. I am having one of those times now. It’s not just in my head. It’s painful too, all over. The strangest is in my blood… My blood hurts. It drives me insane. I cannot concentrate, and I cannot survive forever like this. You cannot talk to me, you cannot touch me. If you talk to me you strain my concentration. If you touch me you will cause me pain. Is this pain only in my head? When I use to cause pain I would tell myself it is only pain, just a translation in the brain. But this, if it is caused by my mind, I don’t feel it in my mind. I feel in my blood. Don’t talk to me, don’t touch me. Touch me, and you will cause me pain. My soul is thinning. How long will I last? How long before I begin to fade? How long, before I am gone completely? It hurts, oh it hurts. But not to worry, it passes. No, that’s not right. I hide it, or rather forget it. If I can be busy enough with something else… sometimes I can forget it. But it makes me weak. It takes so much out of me. No superhero am I. My Kryptonite is in my mind, and has poisoned my blood. Terminal is what my disease is, for there is no cure and it may be the death of me. It’s true; the stress and strain cannot be good for my heart. My blood, my blood, oh how it hurts. Not to worry, for I can forget it, it’s just a matter of time.
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Another Weekend gone!

Another weekend has come and gone. Saturday we cleaned and relaxed a little, I got my grocery shopping done too. On Sunday we had our friends, Kelsey and Nathanial, over. Callie came over too. They have three young ones who were at grandma and grandpa's until around 4pm then they picked them up and came back over to our house. The kids are so fun to be around. Once they get comfortable they like to play with you. The range in age from a year an a half to about 4. Gabriel, Olivia and Abigail. They call Olivia Oly and Abigail Abby...they are so cute. Three little ones can be a handful but with all of us there it was no problem. We have fun with them and they invited us to go to Six Flags in the beginning of October....we will think about it.
Our weekend went well and we had fun.

This coming Friday my mom is scheduled to have surgery-outpatient. She will be off of work for probably 2-3 weeks. Hopefully the surgery goes well and she will be on the road to recovery. I will probably be out there Thursday night and the whole weekend. Karson probably will join me on Saturday. I will be helping my mom but it is always nice to see the whole family.

Marcel is doing well and is at home recovering. Veronica is taking good care of hime, what a great wife! We visited them Friday night and I stole Veronica away while Karson "babysat" Marcel. Her mom, Ruth, and Marcel's sister, Lavinia, joined us to see the movie "Women". It was a real chic flick and sooooo funny. There were other sisters there and the theatre was filled with women and a few men. When we got back to the house Marcel and Karson were busy playing bomber man on XBox 36. Me and Veronica played for awhile then we left. We had a nice visit. We will probably visit them again beofore this weekend.

Well I guess that is all for now....I will make sure to write an update after my mom's surgery.

Dez

Marcel

Marcel's surgery went well and he is currently still at the Sunset Kaiser and should be released today or tomorrow. This past weekend we also helped my parents move. It was sure alot of work for all involved. I put some pictures from the District and our Disneyland trip on the Blog. I hope you all enjoy!! Dez